fuckfuckfuckgoddamnit

it's hard not to feel depressed right now... my two hopes for an understanding soulmates dashed already. one's old and a little too fat and the other is taken. :(:(:(

and it wouldn't matter if i felt like....

ifi felt like i knew exactly what i wanted like he does... or if i had any idea where the fuck i'm going with any of this.

this shit is fucked.

all these plans i made... they feel dead, they don't apply to me.

right now all i want is someone who understands. someone with the same sickness as me.

(and i'm not being fuckin poetic, i actually have a genetic disease.)

:(

2006-04-21