sprawled under sunlight, contemplating death

sunlight burns my skin
hurts to move or think
or blink past this moment
stretched out as it would be
between sheets but instead
it's the heat of the sunlight
that's keeping me warm

my body splayed
like scissors scattered
unsupervised and dangerous
across the floor
limbs twisted as if in some
horrible accident
no one on the scene yet
to determine the crime

i'm wide awake in the middle of the night
i have lovers in other countries
who i haven't met yet
i take a shower, let the water beat down
against my tired skin
i won't age gracefully i know

i'd die to replace this organ
only that would defeat the purpose
i stretch on through the most unthinkable
makes you wonder, you know
it really does

2006-04-13